Entering the cougars den

Three years ago I spent some time in the cougars den. He was almost three years younger then me. It was nothing I expected to happen but it did. I fell hard. Harder then I have fell for anybody. I never expected to like him. I never expected him to like me. But we did. I was 21, he was 18. It was sort of a big deal and ultimately the thing that ended us. Knowing what I know now, there would have been other things that would have ended us even if age weren't a factor but age was the thing that gave us an earlier death then we may have had otherwise.

Post him, I have been very turned off to the idea of a younger guy. I could date someone 10 years older then he is but not someone 2 years younger then me.

Then there is this guy who has been in and out of my thoughts for the past week or so. He is twenty. Not almost twenty one. Freshly twenty. I am twenty-four-and-a-half.

Chemistry is such an interesting thing. How I might not even realize I am attracted to someone but I find myself wanting to be beside them. Lets call this boy....Simba.

He is new on staff at the camp where I spent 4 summers on staff and sometime work at currently. We were in line waiting to get lunch and he was funny. He asked if I would join him for lunch and then I did. Eating lunch with families can be really awkward. Eating lunch with families with someone you barely know can be REALLY awkward. It wasn't awkward at all. We bantered. I tricked him into thinking he was supposed to sing on stage. He believed me. He panicked. It was awesome.

The weekend continued and I noticed that his name was taking up a spot in my brain.

We went home and I got super twitter pated each time he wrote on my wall. I apparently am a big hit with the 19 year old new staff who all think I am hilarious and adorable and are smart enough to tell me so and facebook and he "likes" it and agrees and says how incredibly excited he is for me to visit. WTH? Why is a 20 year olds making me get all twitterpated? Has it gotten that bad that I have resorted to becoming twitterpated by 20 year olds? Oh dear....