The time I failed at Internet Dating

I signed up to do something about 2 or 3 weeks that I never ever imagined myself doing. I signed up for Eharmony. I have mocked internet dating in the past and maybe even called it things like "creepy and desperate". But then reality sets in. I am a 24 year old nanny trying to make a career in the fashion industry. My demographic is 8 year old girls and gay men. I don't really meet people except in passing. Maybe this could be an okay thing. So I bit the dust and for 60 dollars I got three months of the service.

3 weeks later and not a single date. People have contacted me. People who I have absolutely no physical attraction to. Or someone will contact me and then they will say something like they are fine with any schedule except someone who is really busy with a somewhat crazy schedule. That is fine but that doesn't match with me. I prefer someone with a crazy schedule because they understand why I have a crazy schedule.

There was one guy who caught my attention and we emailed back and forth. And back and forth. And back and forth. Long messages. Basically we were pen pals. And then...he got into med school in another state. Up until this point we had really good conversations and then I suggested we actually hang out and he went missing. This past weekend he sent me a message that he didn't think he should start something when he is moving out of state and that I seem a bit too reserved for him. I am a lot of things but reserved is not one of them. I wrote back a very polite email and wished him luck in life. I wrote a sentence about how ACTUALLY I am not reserved at all and that if he actually knew me then he would know that. I deleted that sentence because I didn't want to come off as crazy.

How is it that I am failing at even finding dates on the internet? I know its only been three weeks but come on?!?! There has to be someone in the world who is kind of attractive and loves Jesus and also thinks I am interesting enough to go on a date with. Sheesh.

Standards

This weekend I was sitting in a cabin at camp talking to some of the new girls on staff. Two thirds of these girls were once campers of mine causing me to feel a little bit like the old maid in the room. An hour or so into the conversation it came up that I am 24 years old and have never been kissed, nor have I ever had someone who I could refer to as my boyfriend. One of the girls asked if I ever want to get married or if I just plan on staying single my whole life. She is 18 and her intentions were very sweet but I wanted to say something along the lines of "no, bitch. I am apparently just really horrible at being pursued by men and no one worth my interest has made any real indication that they find me desirable". I didn't say that. I was very polite. We were at church camp after all and I used to be her counselor. Instead I gave the standard response that I know that Gods delights in the desires of my heart and that one day He will brings along some awesome person and how the love story He is writing for me is better then any love story I could write for myself.

I am not a terrible looking girl. I am fun to be around. I can be pretty dang charming. I take care of my body and consider myself to be in pretty good shape. I have heard that I am funny and people tend to laugh at my jokes. I make good choices. I have great friends. I love Jesus. I am learning everyday what it means to truly know Jesus. I will never fit in any political circle because I am spiritually conservative and politically liberal. I don't believe in premarital sex but I do believe that homosexual people should have the ability to have a civil union in the state of California. I voted for Barack Obama, I know....scandalous.

I do have some standards in the people I date. Maybe this is what is stopping me.

• Must love Jesus
• I have to at least be sort of physically attracted to them
• Some sort of life ambition
• They can't be super conservative
• They must have integrity

The End